It's not about the money, Honey!

"But you know... It's not about the money, Honey!"
I said to Nikky. She however seemed to disagree with me.

She smiled.
She smiled at my foolishness. She smiled at my ignorance.
She smiled at my not being to able to understand the value of money.

And hence began another of our thoughtful conversations.


I began by asking this to myself and I also ask to others....
How many times have you done a thing without a monetary motive? Or rather how many times in the past have you done a thing that has really pleased you and made you happy. And this could have no consequences. No results. No Gains. You do it just for the sheer joy of doing it. All because it pleases you and you are happy doing it. When was the last time you did it?

Now, there are different kind of people. Some tend to view everything with a business point of view. So any idea you propose to them, you are asked back, What is the business value in this. How will you gain funds for it. etc etc...

Just the other day I was discussing with another friend about having a passion in life. In doing a thing that is apart from your job. Doing a thing that does not require a business plan. A thing that does not worry if you don't get any thing materialistic out of it. A thing for which you dont feel bad if you spent a few hours on it and still don't benefit from it. I am sure that everyone has something or the other like this.
Many do not realise what is, and many others do not want to accept what they like.

After all this ramblings, Nikky and me came to some agreement.
In the end I guess it not ALWAYS about the money. There are certain phases in everyone's life when Money is everything. Their world revolves around it. But then not always. What more money is required that being able to have a shelter and a fill stomach. Ideally that should be the case. But I know it is not.

I click not for monetary gains, but for the sheer joy of it. If something comes along the way, its welcome.
When that happens I get some new glasses and other accessories for Nikky. And I know that she will be happy about it. And as a result of it, I will be happy.

Monologue ...

Sitting at the coffee table at Barista, I discuss this with Netra often.

Basically it was a monologue you could say.
She did not say a word and it was just me doing all the talking all the while.
There is this thing with me.
If I am not talking, I would not talk, and if i start talking, i just go and on.

"Today's fortune: You are the master of every situation. "
I read that in an online fortune message. How true it is I thought.



I often say to people who ask me for advice, the best person for the solution to your problems is yourself. The others are just to guide you.

What I am is because of me.
What I will be is because of me.

What I will do is because I like doing it.
What I seek is because I yearn for it.

I am an integral part of me.
Every success is mine.
Every failure is mine.

I am the creator of my dreams.
I am the follower of my dreams.

I am the creator of my problems,
I am the finder of the solutions...

I am the center of my universe.
So I am me.

Also read similar thing at my friend Sharanya's profile and have loved it.

Intuition

I woke up today morning with a bad intuition. Reached office and found out that yes there was indeed some bad news. Another terror attack. A few more innocent lives killed. Bangalore witnesses 9 blasts in the span of an hour. So been in this pensive mood since morning.
I love the city of Bangalore. Netra and me have really fond memories of it. It was there that our love blossomed. We got to know each other better. The weekend outings had been memorable.

And then suddenly there is all this happening. And this is not the first time that this has happened.
Why do people have to do it?
Many like me would have asked the same question.
Many like me do not know the answer to it.
Many like me would perhaps stay quiet and just pray that nothing like this happens to our loved ones.
Many would start to think, if at all there is a place that can be called safe is not vulnerable against these social evils.

One of the best outings that Nikky and me spent was at the Madiwala Market.
And yes, this was taken at the very place one of the blasts happened on Firday.
This was one of the most satisfying portraits I have taken.

After this incident, I am sure, so many more mothers be worried about their children who have been staying in the city, far away from family.

People would start looking at each other with suspicious eyes. No one would feel safe.


May the soul of the deceased rest in peace.

Dark Times

It was a dark evening.
The clouds enveloped over the city like a dark ocean over the skyscrapers.
The towers of the John Hancock and the Sears Towers appeared to be kissing the clouds and could drench the city at any instant.

Aboard the Odyssey, Netra and me, headed out onto the Lake.
A perfect romantic evening it was. She looked gorgeous in that black outfit of hers. The slanting candle light shone on her body and it glittered like gold. And why not. After all she was my babe. My Golden babe.

The chiaroscuro formed by the clouds, formed interesting patterns on the wake of the cruise. The sun kept playing hide and seek. With the gentle breeze and the rising waves , the water of the looked beautiful.
Standing at the deck, with water droplets hitting us from time to time, we stared at the skyline.
It was a truly romantic moment. A moment of being connected to each other. Far from the maddening crowd of the city, and in the arms of each other.

I had to be over protective of Nikky and made sure that no water went on her sensitive skin. I did not want to send her to the hospital again so soon.



Observing the scene outside, we were wondering about the similar kind of situation that people go through in their life. At times, the clouds engulf the entire soul and even a single ray of light is enough to motivate them.

I remember many such instances in my life. Situations when there would be no one by my side, but Nikky. And these small small incidences in my life has increased my love for her a lot more.
I knew that come what may, in any situation , Nikky would be by my side.
Always there to cheer me up.
Always there to motivate me.
Always showing me the light that is there, at times just beyond the clouds.
Every time I felt let down by someone, Nikky was there for me. She helped me regain my faith in myself. She helped me rejuvinate everytime I came back tired.

When I tell her these things, she blushes. I can sense that. It's just that it is not evident on her face. She has always been very modest and perhaps will never understand the value that she holds in my life.

She is just too precious for me.

What's in a name?

Well there are many kind of names. There are pseudo names, pet names, love names, home names, official names, maiden names .... and so on.

I am sure many of you out there, would have pet names too. I remember having quite a few.
In college my friends used to call me names.. in school it was different ones.. when am at home.. people call me something different.. and then when with loved ones.. they call me something different. ..

But at the end end of it how does it matter?

It's all me. The same person.

So Nikky is Netra. Netra is Nikky.
Nikky is when i am feeling more loved and Netra is when I am on the job with her.

Netra is my vision.
It's through her eyes that I see the world.
And there are many a times that I see a world that is not to be seen with my eyes.



At times Netra loves to adorn these special lenses and at those moments the world around us changes dramatically. There is suddenly so much beauty all around. Every thing has its own design and is truly divine.

And I do feel that at times everyone should take the time out and see the world around them. Pause from the busy lives and just observe and appreciate the beauty of things around.

At times, I so wish, Nikky could talk to me and let me know if she had a pet name for me too! I am sure she would have one as I am sure she loves me just as much as I do.

A Beachy Affair

Today Nikky and me went to the beach...

We spent three hours on the beach...
Apart from the cuddling and the spending time with each other we also met a few seagulls.
Now a word about seagulls. I wanted to take pictures of them and while doing it, it also struck me that I could do an entire series on them. The beach is just a minute walk from my apartment here and the seagulls are there always!
Seagulls are one of the most interesting creatures that I have come across. They scare you, they surprise you, they play with you like friends.
If I moved towards them, they did not fly.. but just walked. If I moved left, they moved right .. and the vice versa. And the faster I walked, the faster they walked!

There was a person on the beach who had supposedly come to read, but she seemed too impressed with my act. I also had other people staring at me..


I was trying to take pictures of it. I wanted to take a picture of it just when it takes off.
With the limited possibilities that my lenses allow, I kept trying!
I could sense that Nikky was getting frustrated at this... of me trying to capture it .. I tried for many times... and thats something with me.
I like to keep trying till I get the shot I want.
One of the things about being a perfectionist. Guess its inbuilt as a Virgo.
However, many a times, it does lead to problematic situations.
At the end I had to settle for this. I also realize that I need a faster lens. Someday perhaps I will get that and Nikky will be happy too! :)

Lets see where we go together now!
Oh Ya, we did go on a cruise the other day. The Odyssey at Chicago. Perhaps I will write about it the next time.

Till then ..
Adios.

The Date...

A bright Chicago Summer Day it was.

A perfect day for a date as one would say.
Not hot, and the cool breeze from the Lake Michigan making things very pleasant.

Hand in hand, we strolled on the Michigan Avenue.
Something was bothering me. I was feeling a bit strange. I had been with her since long, but the fact that I had people ogle at us was un-comforting.
What was stranger to me was the fact that, even though this was a country where people did all sorts of things at the name of PDA (public display of affection) they were staring at us.

Why the hell do people have to stare? A glance is acceptable. But a stare is indeed inviting trouble.

Nevertheless, we continued to go step by step.

At times she also clung around my neck.

The Magnificent Mile Art Festival was on in its full glory at the Tribune Tower. One thing I love about Chicago is its appreciation of art and the support that it gives to artists.

It basically was a sale cum-exhibition of works of different artists across the country.

What really struck both of us was the inspiration that each of these artists possessed.
There were a couple of artists whose work was really inspiring. We also spoke to a few of them.
Talking to these artists one realizes that as a photographer its really important to keep oneself inspired and motivated at all times.
There are numerous instances when the art one creates would go unnoticed, but one needs to keep the patience and keep working towards the larger goal. The goal of being able to work on what one is passionate about.
So you have artists who spend a lifetime developing and mastering their style of art.
It takes a lot of patience, perseverance and hard work.

It was a great day spent together. We did not speak much though. All we did was get absorbed in the art in the air.

Lovely times together I should say.